"Magic happens when we're young and we let go of it thinking we'll find a bigger spark,

But as we get older we realize there are just some things that happen once in a lifetime..."

I'm happy with my little magic and its spark and im gonna hold on to her forever...

i love you behnaz

thank you so much for everything baby...

i love you so much nini kuchulu...

check it out guys, soon to be up and running...

"CRAVINGS AND DELIGHT"

my wifey's new business... =)

http://cravingsndelight.multiply.com/

went to have my car's electronic system check by 12:30pm and just did that. the car got fixed alright, everything was doing well and i paid the fee's and drove back to work. stoplight, in short waiting on a red light to turn green and i was even checking the clock of the car to see the time, its 1:30pm... then suddenly BOOM!!! my car moved towards the right side of the road! SH*T!!!!! (just to think of it, i had an accident a month ago and spent 400k and now this???) oh boy!!!! make a wild guess what hit me from the left, a horse with its f*cking huge cart! i was stunned!!! amazing!!! to be hit by a car was one thing but with this, how the hell I'm gonna claim it from the insurance??? geez... waited till the cops came, they were dumb founded by the situation as i told them what happen and the they were trying to work things out till me and the HORSE went to the police office to deal with the damages and whatever was left to settle. so the cops came up with an idea to right a file so i can claim something from my insurance and let the HORSE back into the WILD to run FREE( what i mean about the WILD is the CITY, you know what i mean! so help us god for the next victim of the HORSE and its carrying cart! gosh... a good way to waste 3hours! surely i'll be wasting another few days tomorrow and such just to process insurance papers again! thank you lord, can i get an amen??? AMEN!!!!!

P.S

 THIS IS WHY I LIKE PINAS MORE COZ THE ANIMALS STAY AT THE FARM!!!!!

Do you have any pets?
-dogs! lots and lots of dogsss! =)

What color shirt are you wearing?
-right now? its colorful! hehe!

Name three things that are physically close to you:
- wallet, cellphone and a good underwear! bwahaha! oh diba close? ;)

What is the last book you read?
- hmmm... cant remember, j.mcnaught book

Are you or were you a good student?
- i think i was... bwahaha!!!

What's your favorite sport?
- any kind of water sports! yahoo... football too and a gym addict! =)

Do you enjoy sleeping late?
- love it! hehe!

What's the weather like right now?
- cold! very cold! freezing...

Who tells the best jokes?
- i do! im a walking joke! =)

What was the last thing you dreamed about?
- dreamt of her... cant wait to be with her...

Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
-yes and yes and very yes! cost me 200k last month!!! shet

Do you believe in karma?
- yes... very...

Do you believe in luck?
- yes! ladyluck!

Do you like your eggs scrambled or sunny side up?
- any... love eggs! =)

Do you collect anything? If so, what?
- alot of stuff... but want to have a room full of shoes someday soon! =)

Are you proud of yourself?
- very...

Are you reliable?
- take a 2nd look at me, what do u see?

Have you ever given money to a bum?
- oh well, im a giver..

What's your favorite food?
- italian! im good at it! hehe!

Have you ever had a secret admirer?
- who hasnt?? aber...

Do you like the smell of gasoline?
- oh hell yeah! ;)

Do like to draw?
- i paint alot! =)

What's your favorite invention?
- internet!!! duh!!!

Is your room messy?
- lol! hmmm... LOLZZZ!!!

What do you like better: oranges or apples?
- i love fruits, no matter what! =)

Do you give in easily?
- give in??? u can try, but i doubt it!

Are you a good guesser?
- i guess!!! nyehehehe...

Can you read other people's expressions?
- i can even read minds!!! LOLZ

Are you a bully?
- do i look like one???

Do you have a job?
- yup, im on it right now!!! hehe!

What time did you wake up this morning?
- late for work! bwahaha! 8am

What did you eat for breakfast this morning?
- milk!!! =D

Do you know how to pronounce hors d'oeuvre correctly?
- duh! i know french! ;)

What do you plan on doing tomorrow?
- work again! LOL

What's your favorite day of the week and why?
- TGIFriday and TGISaterday! ;)

Do you have any nicknames?
- babysha, shabby, shabby doo, shabby dabby doo, booboo! =)

Have you ever been scuba diving?
- water, for the love of water...

What's your least favorite color?
- i love it colorful! hehe

Is there someone you have been constantly thinking about? If yes, who?
- nini kuchulu... always on my mind all the time...

Would you ever go skydiving?
- adrenaline rush!! RUSH!!!! weee.... love it! =)

What toothpaste do you use?
-colgate forever baby! mom is a dentist! hehe! =)

Do you enjoy challenges?
- i love challenges...

What's the worst injury you have had?
- i am a walking injury! LOL

What's the last movie you saw?
- umm... cant remember! LOL hehe

What do you want to know about the future?
- i dont want to know the future, i wanna see it when it happens! =)

What does your last text message say?
- some joke about a turk! LOLZ!!!

Who was the last person you spoke over the phone to?
- nini kuchulu... grrr...

What's your favorite school subject?
- discreet mathematics!!! really cool!

What's your least favorite school subject?
- religion!!! hello!!!!!

Would you rather have money or love?
- i'll have a love that has brains and we'll make money! oh, diba galing? ;)

What is your dream vacation?
- france, paris!!! city of love/lights with ma nini kuchulu...

What is your favorite animal?
- grizzly bear! LOL

Do you miss anyone right now?
- nini kuchulu always...

Do you have a car? What model?
- peugeot 405gti... smoke'em all.. yeah..

What's the last sporting event you watched?
- football forever!!!

Do you need to do laundry?
- hahahaahahhahah!

Do you listen to the radio?
- sometimes!!! lolz...

Where were you when 9/11 happened?
- at home watching news!

What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
- kick it... kick it hard!!!

Have you ever caught a butterfly?
- i sure did! weee...

What color are your bed sheets?
- floral! bwahaha! mom's fault! =)

What's your ringtone?
- silent all the time! allergic to extra noise eh! sorry....

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
- shirin

Do you have any obsessions right now?
- nini kuchulu!!! grrr... Q'AZ!!! =)

Do you like things that glow in the dark?
- bwahaha! i glow in the dark! dont know why!!!

What's your favorite fruity scent?
- strawberry! love'em!!! =)

Do you watch cartoons?
- who doesnt! duh!!!

Have you ever sat on a roof?
- did so many times! =)

Have you ever been to a different country?
- hell yeah... i love travelling! =D

Name three things in the world you dislike:
- loneliness, depression and empty wallet!!! ek...

Has a rumor even been spread about you?
- i was the gossip of the town! bwahaha! =D

Do you like sushi?
- i love love love it so much...

Do you believe in magic?
- i do now! hahaha!

Do you hold grudges?
- depends... but mostly i forget it!

Manual or automatic?
- if i wanna race MANUAL, but i like AUTOMATIC for cruising! =)

Perfume?
- versace collection! "sorry..."

Inlove?
- very, as in very much!!! "nini kuchulu" =)

I'm just missing some thing's....

like this spectacular view that's tattooed in my mind...

or

like this moment that i'll never forget...

or

like this feeling of happiness that lasts forever...

now i know what's wrong...

now i know what I'm missing...

I'm missing her...

missing her so much...

yes!!! its one of those sunday's again, and i hate it! been feeling a lil depressed for reasons i don't know why, been missing something i don't know what and someone's not around like she usually would be. sighs!!!

guess its been a long time since a wrote a personal blog, so here it goes...

LIFE AND ITS WONDERFUL SURPRISES!!!

well, it sure is... but then again, things don't always go our way, does it??!!! haha! so that's when some say "That's Life" bwahaha! tell me about it!!! and the million dollar question is...

"WHAT IS LIFE?"

oh well, don't ask me, coz i don't think i could give a straight answer for it, heck, i don't even know what is it for sure, that one thing i know, I'm living it, day by day, every second that counts, yes i live my life... no matter it'll be to the fullest or just try to make something out of it, at least I'm trying to make something happen! geez... how hard could it be? maybe not for me, nor for you and neither anyone else that's reading this coz after all, all you need is some lovin' popped from the oven! bwahaha! some sugar and spice and everything nice! nyahahah... sad to say, there ain't no lovin' poppin' from the oven over here and no sugar for me coz I'm on a diet, spices ummm... black pepper on my salad for lunch and everything nice that, i wished but nothing nice has happened to me today so far... hmmm... make me realize... i think now i can answer the million dollar question... if you ask me "What is Life???" i'd look around me for a few seconds and look back at you and say "That's Life!!!" ...so there you have it friends, another boring day in my life that i talk about nonsense moments in life...

-booboo

P.S.....

NO MATTER HOWEVER IT MAY BE,

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL IF YOU WANT IT TO BE...

A thousand words one could say...
A thousand wishes one could pray...
A thousand miles legs could walk...
A thousand sounds a mouth could talk...
A thousand ways i'll be true
And A thousand times i love you...

381NININAZ

counting the days till i get on this plane and fly back home...
be happier this time around, coz i'll be in the arms of my beloved...
back to where i belong, home is where i belong...
home... home, sweet home...

LETTER 'A'
Are you Available?
= the bear is owned! =)

What is your Age?
= 27ish... hahaha! ;)

What Annoys you?
= -18 degrees below zero right now!!!

THE LETTER 'B'
Do you live in a Big house?
= ummm... yah!

When is your Birthday?
= sept.22 and nov.2! i got 2 bdays! :P

THE LETTER 'C'
What's your favorite Chocolate?
= Belgian 90%! yum!!!

THE LETTER 'D'
Do you Daydream?
= of her!!! grrr... nininaz...

What's your favorite kind of Dog?
= i have alot but i want an Akita. =)

What Day of the week is it?
= TUESDAY!!! argh!!!

THE LETTER 'E'
Have you ever been in the Emergency
room?
= never...

Did you had a crush dat starts w/
letter E?
= ???

THE LETTER 'F'
Favorite Flower?
= white roses

THE LETTER 'G'
Do you chew Gum?
= hehehe! ;)

Are you a Giver or a taker?
= giver that wants to be taken!

THE LETTER 'H'
What's your Height?
= i cant remember! ;)

what color is your Hair?
= drak brown.

THE LETTER 'I'
What's your favorite Ice cream?
= dulce de leche! if u know it! ;)

Have you ever Ice skated?
= the is a snow outside, make another guess!

Do you play an Instrument?
= drums! drummer in a hiskul band! =)

THE LETTER 'J'
What's your favorite Jelly bean?
= hmmmm... i am a jelly bean! ;)

Have you ever heard a really hilarious
Joke?
= grizzly bear is a walking joke! =)

Do you wear Jewelry?
= hahaha! LOL

THE LETTER 'K'
Do you want Kids?
= alot... grr... nininaz... x)

Where did you have Kindergarten?
= ICCHS

THE LETTER 'M'
Whats your favorite Movie?
= city of angels!(coz im an angel) =)

Jackie Chan or Jet Li movies?
= both!

do you still watch disney Movies?
= duh!!!

Do you like Mangoes?
= allergic! ;)

THE LETTER 'N'
Do you have a Nickname?
= booboo! =)

Whats your favorite Number?
= 2

do you prefer Night over day?
= dusk... love it...

THE LETTER 'O'
Whats your One wish?
= to make her happy...

THE LETTER 'P'
What one fear are you most Paranoid about?
= to be broken again

What's a Personality trait you look
for in the opposite sex you like?
= great love...

THE LETTER 'Q'
Are you Quick to judge people?
= i dont judge.

THE LETTER 'R'
Do you watch Reality tv?
= dont have time for tv. =)

THE LETTER 'S'
Do you prefer sun or rain?
= i hate the rain...

Do you like Snow?
= i love snow... reminds me of nininaz! x)

Season?
= summer! beach!!!

THE LETTER 'T'
What Time is it?
= 3:30pm

What time did you wake up?.
= 7am always!

THE LETTER 'V'
Whats the worst veggie?
= eggplant! allergic! ;)

Where do you want to go on Vacation?
= boracay! missing the island!!!

THE LETTER 'W'
What's your Worst habit?
= hahaha! nevermind! ;)

THE LETTER 'X'
Have you ever had an X-ray?
= back injury, feet, shoulder injury, etc.

Do you own a xylophone?
= ???

THE LETTER 'Y'
Do you like the color yellow?
= on what? on me???

What Year were you born in?
= 1360! if you know what that is! ;)

Whats one thing you Yeats for?
= the truth about cats and dogs... =)

THE LETTER 'Z'
Whats your Zodiac sign?
= verpio! ;)

Do you believe in ZODIACS?
= oh well! life styles!

Little drops of rain, whispers of old pain,
Forget the tears of the past, My love is here to last.
With You My love is strong, there can be nothing wrong,
Together we shall grow, until the great times flow.
And so today My world it smiles,
Your hand in mine, we'll walk thru miles,
Thank You for the things You've done,
For to Me You are the only one.
If the sun refused to shine,
I would still love You until the end of time.
When mountains crumble to the sea,
There will still be You and Me.
Nininaz, I give You My all,
Whatever it takes, i'll stand up tall.

As around the sun the earth knows she's revolving
And the rosebuds know to bloom in early morning
Just as hate knows love's a cure
You can rest your mind assured
That I'll be loving you always

As now can't reveal the mystery of tomorrow
But in passing will grow older every day
Just as all is born is new
You know what I say is true
That I'll be loving you always

Did you know that true love asks for nothing
Our acceptance is the way we pay
Did you know that life has given love a guarantee
That last through forever
And another day

As today I know I'm living for tomorrow
Couldn't make me be the past but that I must not fear
Now I know deep in my mind
The love of me I left behind
And I'll be loving you always

Until the rainbow burns the stars out of the sky
Until the dolphins fly and seabirds love the sea
Until the ocean covers every mountain high
Until we dream of life and life becomes a dream
Until the day is night and night becomes the day
Until the day that eight times eight times eight is four
Until the trees and seas just up and fly away
Until the day that it's the day that I'm no more

Life has given love a guarantee
To last through forever and another day
Now I know deep in my mind
The love for you i have inside it will last forever if you stay

Never thought I'd fall in love again
To find the pieces of the puzzle and life cannot begin
The search begins with knowing I need you
Could not imagine in my dreams that you need me too

There was an empty void inside my heart
I tried to fill the space with anything, But left it in the dark
Then a blessing came in the form of you
Now I know that God has smiled on me too

Someone to love...
All my dreams have come true, Now that I've found you
Someone to love...
Alone I feel no more, Since you unlock the door to my heart

I didn't know when it would come
All I know is that I wanted someone
To take me far away from my loneliness
So I thank you nini kuchulu, Thank you so much for coming into my life...

Now that I've found you, Alone i feel no more...
All my dreams have come true, Since you've unlocked the door to my heart...

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU.
1. Are you single? i don't know!!!
2. Are you happy? I'm very happy when she's around...
4. Are you sad? when she's not around...
5. Are you Italian? hahaha! don't even ask!
6. Are you pregnant? LOL!!!
7. Are you black? hmmm... white as a white wall!
8. Are you cold? i used to be
9. Are you Irish? ok... thats enof!
10. Are your parents still married? yesyesyoh...

TEN FACTS
1. Name -shahab
2. Nicknames -shabby dabby doo, shabbyboy, shabby baby, babysha, grizzly bear, but ma fave:"BOOBOO" =) nini kuchulu...
3. Birth place -tabriz...
4. Hair color -dark brown
5. Current hair style -uhm... the kind that they don't like! ;)
7. Birthday - which one? i have two!!!
8. Mood -hyper!!!!!                                                                         
9. Favorite color -BLACK, WHITE, RED...
10.Left or right handed?- LEFTY...

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love? -I'm in love right now! =)
2. Do you believe in love at first sight? -say what??? but i fell in love with her smile! tattooed on my mind! ;)
3. Why did your last relationship fail? -it just didn't work... life goes on...
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally? -past is past... just don't wanna go back...
6. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? -who doesn't???
7. Has any of your relationships been mistakes? -mistakes???                                       
8. Are you afraid of commitment? -nope..why should i?          
10. Have you ever had a secret admirer? -i dunno!!! LOL

TEN THIS OR THAT?
1. Love or lust? -love                                              
2. Hard liquor or beer? -hard liquor
3. Cats or dogs? -i love animals... =)
4. A few best friends or many regular friends? -i have alot of both worlds! =)
5. Television or Internet? -internet 24/7!!!                         
6. Pepsi or coke? -water...                                      
7. Wild night out or romantic night in? -depends if I'm single or not!
8. Money or Happiness? -happiness!
9. Night or day? -night!                                                          
10. MSN or phone? -cellphone...

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out? -sneak out???
2. Been skinny dipping? -never mind... ;)
3. Done something you regret? -thats part of growing up...
4. Bungee jumped? -adrenaline rush... =)                                                         
5. Kissed in the rain? -hope someday soon...
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker? -WOW! it took me 5hours while going around the mall!
7. Wanted an ex bf/gf back? -forgive and forget... need to move on...
10. Wanted to disappear? -take the hand of the woman i love and disappear forever...

TEN PREFERENCES
1. Smile or eyes: BOTH!!!
2. Light or dark hair: does it really matter???
3. Hugs or kisses: everybody want a piece of both...                                    
4. Shorter or taller: i fell in love with a shorty... =)                                                
5. Long hair or short hair:long hair for moi!                                 
6. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic and spontaneous!                                 
7. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
8. Style or Swagga: swawhat??? STYLE!!!                                                     
9. Swinger or Straight: I'm straight...
10. Trust or Faith: trust

TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made: nini kuchulu last night! mwah... =)
2. Last phone call you received: nini kuchulu... grrr... =)
3. Last person you hung out with: i don't have friends here! =(
5. Last person you tackled: my lil sis last night!poor thing, huge grizzly bear on top of a lil cat!
6. Last person you IMed: nini kuchulu... =)
7. Last text message you received: dad! (is it snowing there?) haha!
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with: movie??? like a more than a year ago... manila gateway with moh, naz, daryoush and diana.
9. Last person who said I Love You and meant it: been waiting for this for a long time...
10. Last person you were intimate with: intiwhat??? LOL

ME:
===

SEPTEMBER = FREAK IN BED
-Loves to chat.
-Loves those who love them.
-Loves to takes things at the center.
-Great in bed.
-Inner and physical beauty.
-Doesn't pretend.
-Gets angry seldom.
-A meaningful love life partner.
-Treats friends importantly.
-Brave and fearless.
-Always making friends.
-It is all about love and fairness.
-Easily hurt but recovers easily.
-Daydreamer.
-Horny but does fullfill.
-Opinionated.
-Does not care to control emotions.
-Knows what to do to have fun.
-Unpredictable.
-Someone to have close to you.
-Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
= Truly romantic

NOVEMBER = GORGEOUS
-Loyal and generous.
-Patriotic.
-Competitive in everything.
-Active in games and interactions.
-Impatient and hasty.
-Ambitious.
-Influential in organizations.
-Fun to be with.
-Easy to talk to, though hard to understand.
-Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know.
-Easily influenced by kindness.
-Very polite and soft-spoken.
-Having lots of ideas.
-Sensitive.
-Extremely active mind.
-Hesitating, tends to delay.
-Choosy and always wants the best.
= Will find true love

HER:
====

JANUARY = SIMPLE AND NICE
-Fun to be with.
-Loves to try new things.
-A boy/girl LOVES you.
-You are hottt.
-Secretive.
-Difficult to fathom and to be understood.
-Quiet unless excited or tensed.
-Takes pride in oneself.
-Easily consoled.
-Honest.
-Concerned about people's feelings.
-Tactful.
-Friendly.
-Approachable.
-Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
-Moody and easily hurt.
-Witty and sparkly.
-Spazzy at times.
-Not revengeful.
-Forgiving but never forgets.
-Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
-Loves to be loved but doesnt show love.
-Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
= Reputation and respect

well, there you have it!

ENJOY...

This is for all the men that wanna change in there life...
Turn our future house into a happy home
You know how that is, stay down with me nini kuchulu, Hold on...
 
Now we've been kicking it for quite some time
Remain beside me through these trials and this life of crime
We've argued so many times I forgot to count
I'll never hurt you, rather keep quiet and be around 
Remember back in September when it all started, right?
Was sipping some vodka and coke last night
In my bedroom, promise that I'll commit to you soon
Gonna Kiss you every time i see you step in my room
Promise to be good to each other
Plus I love you so I know your gonna make a good mother
Just try to understand if I change in time
It's only cause I never owned anything that's mine 
Stay with your parents but keep the drama low
Never call quits, I'll never fail to show 
We were all born hungry in this world alone
Finally I'm gonna move out and get a new home
Gonna turn our future house into a happy home
Going through those hard times
nini kuchulu of mine
I wonder if you had to suffer for other people's crime
To be honest it's a hard road
Just keep your faith in God knowing you'll get scarred though
Gonna change my whole lifestyle
Marry you and make you my wife now
I'm trying my best
Maybe in time, I'll be a better man
Watching the older couple, handle it like veterans
Show me the meaning of together and forever
It will help our future children grow better
Why, question my love? It's so easy to see
Without my family all I'm left with is a shadow of me
After all the arguments and the nights alone
Now it's time to live the good life
Inside a happy home
All these problems got me gone
We're gonna have a family of our own
I just want a happy home
Gonna turn our future house into a happy home
No man's made to stand alone
I promise I won't do you wrong
I just want a happy home...

She's got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue...
"I'm not done"
She's got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn't stop there...
"Man I swear"
She's got porcelain skin, of course she's a ten
And now she's even got her own song...
"But movin' on"
She's got the cutest laugh I've ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours...
"Not sayin' one word"
And I would still cherish every moment
And when I start to build my future she's ma main component
Call it dumb, call it luck, call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere I go I keep her picture in my wallet...

"Coz She's the only one i've got..."

You try your best to show me
That you always really care
Said if there were days I was lonely
Just call you - you'll be there

You try your best to convince me
That you always understand
And if I needed someone to hold on to
You wanna be the helping hand

Then I knew it was true
All the feelings that I had inside for you
I could not deny
Though many times I tried

Give me a little more time
I need to make up my mind
Coz you know I don't pretend
I wanna be more than your friend

Give me a little more time...

You've been there when you're needed
You've never let me down
I just don't know how I'd cope
Without you being around

Feelings have grown between us
Though friends we have so far been
Don't you think it complicates things
Or maybe it's just me

Then I knew it was true
All the feelings that you had, I shared them too
I could not deny
Though many times I've tried
Be a little patient baby
Everything will be fine

Just give me a little more time...

I can't pretend any longer
Feelings are getting stronger...

Give me a little more time
I need to make up my mind...

How would you like it
if I talked about your skin
The way you wear your hair, oh girl...
Would u like if I talked about your butt
Or once a month,
turned into someone that was hard to love...

How would you like it
if I didn't like your hair
didn't  like your polish
you be wearing on your toes
if I didn't  like your neck-a-lace
or what u cooked for breakfast
would I be wrong...

then why you wanna change me
flip all the things that really make me
the way that I am
used to make you happy
baby why u wanna change me
you used to like your big old teddy bear
you used to let me get it anywhere
now baby...
it's crazy...
why...
why you wanna change me...

Now what if all I did was pick apart
your friends cause they ain't got no ends
What if I talked about your face
in the morning
Cause we know
that you aint cute in the morning
What If I criticized
the way that you be eating
And when u sleeping
you be doing that heavy breathing
What if I was at
or about your house creeping
Would I be wrong...
Would I be wrong???

we used to love breaking up
knowing well be together again
and we used to love the arguments
cause we making love by the end girl
How you gonna change everything in return
Cause I don't wanna go,
if it ain't gonna be the same...
If it ain't broke then why you wanna change it...

then why you wanna change me
flip all the thangs that really make me
the way that I am
used to make you happy
baby why u wanna change me
you used to like your big old teddy bear
you used to let me get it anywhere
now baby...
it's crazy...
why...
why you wanna change me...